Kelis - Caught out There

Love

Lovely Nemi <3

.To the damn top.

You pushed me down to the bottom, but now am climbing right back to the top.

Love

Lovely Nemi <3

Will I be feelin the Jah Love alredy in September?

Rastaman (Chanza) on this picture I meet in my last week in Zambia in their Capital City Lusaka. He is Zambian but stayes in New Castle in the UK.
A very cool guy!
He jus recently offered me a job at his turist company to come to work in Zambia in September.
I planned to go in Dec-Jan.
Sooo if things works out.....I will be daaaaaaaaammmn happy!!!
Plzzz dear God say it will...I miss it too much.

Älska MER

MER:s reklam är så jääävla het . Roligt budskap.

Det är EXAKT vad vi borde göra!

Love

Hello Kitty

Love

The Pride Festival 2009 is coming up!

The Pride Festival is 27 JUL-2 AUG in Stockholm, the biggest one in Skandinaivia. I will work there as a volonteer during the week in the Info-group and on the Pride Parade, am so looking forward to it!! :)

.

.

As you may alredy know I am bisexual.
For now there is no sex I prefere more.

And for your information, am veeeery single!

Love

Don't be mad when u see dat he want it, cuz if u liked it den u should hav put a ring on it.

I Would Let You Upgrade Me.

Zambia Real Africa

Der is no words to describe how much I miss Zambia.

Am listening to Zambian songs...thinking of my friends... And the time I had there.

About the markets in Lusaka, people starring at me, eating their traditional food, dancing in the bars...bycicling out to the fields...

Fuck... I jus wanna go now.

.Shimia ama Light.

.Nalema.

.My heart is full of Zambian Love.

Lång Väg Hem - Ishmael Beah

En barnsoldats berättelse

"Ishmael Beah tvångsrekryteras som tolvåring till Sierra Leones regerigsarme. Då blir han kvar i tre år som fruktad barnsoldat tills han mot betalning befrias av en UNICEF-representant. Tillsammans med några andra unga pojkar skickas han därefter till ett rehabiliteringscenter för barnsoldater. Där tvingas han ta itu med alla de vidrigheter han sett och gjort. Samtidigt håller mardrömmarna och suget efter narkotika på att knäcka honom. Men det svåraste av allt är att lära sig att lita på andra människor igen."

Den här boken var jätte bra!

Rekomenderar er verkligen att läsa den.

Hjärtskärande, verklighetstrogen och spännande.

Den är så detaljerat skriven att men kan se allt framför sig.

Vilket inte alltid är speciellt posetivt.

Boken fångar i alla fall ens intresse direkt.

Ursäkta för mitt avslöjande men jag tycker om att den hemska resan åtminstonde leder till ett lyckligt slut.

Love

Yuuummmmiiii

.Babies.

.Nitar och Läder.

.Desperate Housewives.

Best Show Ever

.Humana People to People.

To start the 14 month program at Humana is the hardest and best thing I have ever done. There is many lacks in the organisation and some stupid people working in it, you have to do a lot of shit-jobs, it costs a lot of money and so on...BUT in another way it rocks. You learn so much on the way, you meet awsome people, the lifestyle is just so cool...I miss it. After doing this program I am not the same person.

If you start the program u better be up for some changes and challenges, cuz it is hard. Not many dose it without complaining....
But if you are, I do recomend you to start.

The volonteerprogram is built up in 3 parts:
'*Education and work for 6 months on a school.
*Projectperiod in India or Africa - the projects are many and diffent.
*Camp Future - You help out at a project out of the experiences you got from your project period, it is also a time to reflect and decide you next step in life.

Organisation:
http://www.humana.org/
School:
http://www.drh-norway.org/

.Lovely Nemi. <3

.Smooookin.

Give me

.Ice Ice Baby.

.Big Fan of Jim Carey.

Lovely Nemi <3

.Shop Til U Drop.

Today I went out in the rain to the Shopping mall 7 min from my house. Got inside Gina Tricot n looked around on all the clodes.

I smiled, finally!! Finally!!!!

When I reached the dressingrooms my arm was paining from all the heavy clodes hangin on it.

I enjoyed trying everything on, picked out what I wanted...went back out to change some sizes to try on again...

I reached the paymentpart. Now I felt guilty.

When I put my pile of clodes on the desk I evan got a bit shy.

But...WHATEVER!!! I didnt shop for 2-3 years!!!

- Ok, that will bee.... 2 272 kr.

-Oh...uuhmm, it's okaay. Let me add this socks too.

When I got out from the shop I felt happy and proud.

Okaaay, were to go next???? :D

I searched a bit for some nice leatherjackets, I found one for only 900 but they didnt have it i my size... The others I checked were like 2 500, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Time to hit the shooes!

I found two that I liked and bought, high heels and sneakers. They were just too hooot.... Fuck... I am happy!

Sometimes this shallow west world rooocks!!!

Love

Blocket.se

This table I want to buy from blocket.se! The woman is selling it for 1 500 kr.
And she bought it for 5000 from Indiska, if she is telling the truth :P
It would fit perfectly in my livingroom which will have an African theme. I love it.
Problem is, how to get it home, soo I have to wait for my father to help....
But I am goin to get that damn table!!!!!
Love

Nemi <3

.I Killed.

Was it murder?
Yes.
Was it the right thing to do?
No.
And still you did it?
Yes.

I never loved someone this way before, and still, I killed.
Am guilty of murder on my own child.
I will have that with me my hole life.
Always,
I will remember.
Always,
will a part of my heart be unfixable.

The debate will go on and on, is abortion right or wrong?
Should really everybody have this choise?
Is it murder?

30 000 abortions are done only in Sweden, every year.
Is that really okay?
How is it possible that the numbers are this high?

To me, abortion is wrong.
I had the same opinion before, during and after.
My actions went against my own values.
I never thought I was a person who would be able to do this.
But, I also never thought I would be the person who had to make the choise.
This was for sure, the worst thing I ever had to go through.

Before I didnt think it was murder.
I was wrong.
The day after I found out I was pregnant I started reading on the Internet about the diffrent ways to have it removed.
I couldnt stop crying.

But it is just few cells, right??
Bullshit!
A person is growing inside of you.
Alredy you are building you relation with you child.
You love.
Evan it is so small, it is a person, it's just not finished.

I had many reasons for doing it,
but those doesnt make it right.
I cant deny,
I killed.

.Ciara.

Sometimes I Wish I Could Act Like A Boy...

Lenny Kravitz - Were are we running?

Lenny roooocks!!! Love

Nemi <3

Wicca

"An ye harm none,

do what ye will"

This text I got tatood across my chest.
It is the main message in my religions poem The Wiccan Rede. This poem is like the Christianities 10 laws.
It means you should do what you can not to hurt anybody, including yourself.
I try to follow it in the best way i can.
To be honest I am not very active in my believes, it just effects the way i think and sometimes i pray. In India I prayed quit a lot.
I miss being active in my religion, I would like to know others who are believers to celebrate traditions with and so on.
At least when I pray and read about it, I can feel it in my heart.
I started reading about this religion when i was 15, and from the first word I believed everything I read. It felt like everythig just maked sence!
Guess everybody needs to believe in something...and I guess it doesnt have to be a religion.
But believing is beautiful.
Love

(If you are interested to know more, you can ask me or search for information on the Internet. But before you do that you should know that people are writing a lot about only the magic and witches. And you dont have to be a witch to be wiccan, I am not. And I am not interested in becoming one evan though I read a lot about it. BUT the wiccan witches uses their magic to do good, and they are not the kind of witches you see on TV. You will also see a lot of dark pictures and so on, and at the same time they are writing about that the religion is not evil. That is for me just stupid. People that are telling others should be careful with how they put out the message, so that others get the right idea and understand what the religion is all about.)

Lost.

My broken heart.
It will all heal in time.
...right??
Why is it taking so long...? <3

Am not sure if it is cuz I lost the love I thought I had,
or cuz i miss my new lifestyle but I feel so bored now.
Life seams pointless.
And I dont know what I want.
I got the rest of my life right in front of me,
and I am for now not lookin forward to it.
What happend to me?
Love

Nemi <3

I Feel You....

.Damn Chain.

.I Love Silver.

Magdas Weekend

Friday:
I went wit my friend Emma n her girlfriends clubbin, felt like the outsider but was ait...
Anyway I went to enjoy myself on my own later so am cool.
I meet a guy name Patrik, he was nice.
But he was touching me too much, I dont like that.
Why they always hav to fuckin touch me??
Leave dis booty alone, okaaaaaaaaaaaaay?
After the club he baught me some junkfood.
I enjoyed talkin to him.

I had by the way a damn nice outfit dis night. But doesnt show very well... I asked Emma to take some pics of me but never really happend. N here I look like I am on drugs. By the way, the drink aint mine!!


Saturday:
I went clubbin wit my sister to a salsa/reaggeton place.
It was a nice one, I liked it.
Dis night I was jus wearing a simple black dress, but I looked nice anyway, if I am aloud to say dat about myself without people thinkin am bragin??
There I meet 2 guys from Nigeria, how do I succed??
The Africans are some how drawn to me :S !!!
Anyway they were quit cool.
I went up to hav a ciggerete wit King, as he called himself.
He was very happy, social n funny.
When we came back down my sis was pissed I left her wit his friend who abviously wanted to hook up wit her... She was so pissed she evan decided to leave the club.
Am sorrrryyyyy!!! :(
I stayed for a while longer....
While dancing wit King I could feel him getting hard pushing himself against me.
I felt uncomfertable so I said I needed to rest.
As u can imagen also this dude was touching me.
More then Patrik.
Stooop fuckin touching me you nasty hoooees!!!!

Sunday:
Patrik called me in the morning,
he wanted to hook up later.
I went to the centralstation to vote first,
and I walked away from there feeling god damn important.
Me n Patrik meet to eat at a Pizza resturant.
I took a salad.
Then we went to see if there were any good movies at the cinema.
We decided to go for "17 Again".
Now we had 2 hours to kill before the movie started.
So we went through the old part of town lookin in shops, I baught an earing.
N of course, I had to get myself some Ben n Jerrys Ice cream again!
Patrik turned them down...???????????? He claimes they are too sweet. :S
I dont know whats wrong wit him, he hit his head as little or what?
The movie was funny anyway....
I enjoyed spendin the day wit him, I was quit suprised feelin dat way.
He seames like a good guy.
He is half swedish half nigerian, so we speak also a lot about Africa of course.

Think am gettin a cold, my voice sounds like shit!
Good night people....
Love

M.I.A

M.I.A

She has a unique style,
n cuz of dat she reached the damn top.

Keep it rockin...

Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LFdPVf1diw

Courtney Love America's Sweetheart

I love this video!! Courtney is the hottest!!!
Jus to bad she cant find her way.
Love

Nemi <3

Courtney Love - Be a Man

You should learn to be a man.
Gon prove to you that I am so much better then you!

Family Bambadrillo

Yesterday I went to visit my friend Filippa after work.
Her boyfriend Andreas picked me up when I finished my shift.
They had twins, they are about 8 months now if I am not mistaken.
Mr Atreyu and Miss Aeon.
It was nice to meet Filippa, long time since i saw her.
I enjoyed talkin to her.
Laughing.
Filippa and her family is one of a kind, dats for sure!
They are just too stupid! :)
I like them.
To be there was also hard for me.
I couldnt look at her children without seeing my child in them.
And I couldnt look at Filippa without seeing myself as a mother.
I think I will always have this with me, it will never stop hurting.
I spend the night sleeping on their sofa.
I never slepped so good in a sofa befor!
Well, I mean exept for when the babies started screaming.
Love

Dagens Nemi <3

I can still feel it.

I would like to be able to tell you,
that i am soo over you!
That I hate you!
But I cant.
It still hurts.
N so many memories can still make me smile.
Now when I am talkin to her,
it makes it all come back.
I dont want you here,
is not that...
Jus everything you did to me...
I jus wanna love again,
but it will take time to make this go away.

How could you be so heartless...?

Nemi <3

Elisa

This is my favourite artist,
her name is Elisa and she is from Italy.
Her most famous song is called "Dancing" ,

it's beautiful.

But this one is my favourite.

I have never seen her live but that is one of my dreames...

Love

Serenje (Zambia Real Africa)

Few days ago I spoke to Biggie (my best friend in Zambia) on the phone.

I miss him too much... especially after I jus talked to him.

Fuck...

I miss everything in Serenje, my small town, my home.

Sometimes I wanna be there so badly I feel like crying.

And the waiting for the next time to go feels like forever...

Africa is the most beautiful place I have ever seen.

I miss the people.

The atomosphere.

To feel free...

The rastas in the open market.

And my dog Tobie of course. My baby.

My heart is full of Zambian love.
I cant forget.