I Got Soul But I'm Not A Soldier. Yet.

My dream is, when I come back to Sweden, to do military training. Many are suprised, saying it's not for me. I can't do it. And that it's against everything I stand up for. But it's not true. This doesn't mean I think war is right. But war is there! Wether I like it or not. And if I want to work in the third world I should know it. I should know my enemy. Besides, I want to be stronger in both body and mind. It's good to have on my CV... And maybe I want to work as a UN-soldier. Maybe I wont be able to do it like you all think. But I will try. I will do my very best.

Love

Pathetic.

I have been trough some ruff times.
But it is nothing compared to other peoples pain.
I am so sick of my feares.
My complaining is pathetic.
Ridiculous.

Love

SKIN

I watched this movie last night. You are really missing out if you dont!

I loved it.

Really touched me.

Makes me miss Africa.

Love

Munga

Change

I get so frustraited with myself sometimes.
With my flaws.
I want to be better.
To learn.
Change.
Perfect I will never be, but I can always get better.
The thought of that my flaws can hold me back from getting were I wanna be makes me angry.
I need to be a fighter.
To work on your soul is scary and difficult.
But I have to do it.
Few years ago I tattood the word Change on my ass.
(Not happy with the way it looks yet though, aint finished)
I want to remember that life is about trying to change.
Everything in life WILL change.
I want to be the change I wish to see in the world (Ghandi).
I wanna change the world.
Change is the key-word of life to me.
Thats why I had it tatood.
The word is important to me.

Love

Miss Lonely

"Love is bullshit, and please!!! I don't need anyone! Plus, my dreames comes first!"
And still...I feel lonely.
I guess I do want it all.
A home, kids, a ring on my finger.
But I don't wanna join the game again if it is going to hurt.
I don't wanna take the chance...
Am so tierd of trying to see through people all the time.
Are they real or not?
Russian Roulette.
That's what it is.
I'm afraid.

Such a cliché, huh?
The broken hearted girl is afraid to love again.
I guess everyone has to take the same road.
To fear and to crash.
I'm not the only one.

I just hope that when I meet this person.
When I stand on the edge. Terrefied.
I will jump.

Love

Oh My God! - Jonas Gardell

Joooonnaaas! You are so hot! My idol! Brilliant! I will never miss an episode. It's so interesting!You learn so much from this show, makes you question everything you believe in. Jonas is so good in explaining everything with his own words so it becomes easy to understand. And he is sooo funny! Intelligent, smart and sexy! If I was a man and gay I would so not say no!! Haha!

Much Love to you Jonas!