I Cant See The Beauty In You Anymore

Me and Demba were talkin for a long time about a week ago on the phone.
About everything. Discussed what went wrong and why.
We decided to meet when he got up to Stockholm again.

I dont love him.
But I am still IN love.
And I care.

Few days ago for the first time I truly realised something.
I dont want him.
He is not good enough for me.
Wonderful in many ways, but I need more.
And I have now faith in that I will find that one day.
I want to meet him and talk like we decided but it will never be us again.
It's sad...
But he wont change.

I am happy this days.
Am loving my life.

Love