Mahatma Ghandi

This book was nominated to the Augustprice in 2008, n I can see why.
It is VERY well written, really! Woow!
You have to read it! Zac is amazing. Ghandi is amazing!!!
I have always been facinated by Ghandi. He is one of the coolest people that ever existed.
Ghandi is a big rolemodel for me.
Fantastic! Brilliant! Superdupercool!

Ever since I was a child, my dream has been to one day be a big person.
A person dat can be compared to Ghandi.
I dont need to be famous, working in politics like he did or anything.
Just in my own way.
I wanna be able to see the beauty in every person.
I want to see them for who they are.
Remember them.
Let them into my heart.
Apritiate them.
I wanna be thankful for everything I recieve,
and give without expecting anything back.
I want them to see my love for them shine through my eyes.
I wanna be a hand to hold when they try to raise.
I want to be their rock.
But before I do that, I want to be own rock.
I want to grow so high I'll be more afraid to fall then to fly.
I wanna be a fighter with a strong mind and inspire people to fight.
I wanna stand up for justice.
That's my dream, that's what keeps me going.
I will get there one day... I have to believe in that.
But now, I'm not evan close.
One day.

Love

Good bye my lover.

Evan I before said I didnt want much contact wit Demba, he called again.
Everytime he does, everytime I hear his voice...I'm back.
It makes me feel so close to him, it makes me feel calm n safe.
But I know it doesnt work, cuz everytime I am also hurting.
I know I hav to leave him behind me.
But it is so hard...I said it is over like one thousend times now.
I feel so silly.
Is jus that...I was so in love!!
I was naiv enough to believe that it would be you n me always.
I thought that you would always be there for me, n I would always be there for you.
Never hav I felt so close to anyone.
I loved you so damn much.
I never saw it coming.
Why couldnt u jus hav been real??
I miss having you beside me so much.
Often I manage to pretend I dont care, but of course I do.
You will always, always, always hav a part of my heart.
I know it doesnt seam like it, but I came so far on the way to let you go.
It took me so long to get were I am now.
I am ok without you.
But you keep coming back...
You cant do that!
I will never give you the chance to hurt me again. Ever.
Thats why, I called you to say good-bye. Again.
It is supposed to be a final one.
A no-more-contact-at-all-one.
You cried.
I cried.
I didnt want to.
But I had to.
I'm sorry my stupid tiger...
In a way I still love you.
But I have to leave you behind me now! I HAVE TO!
Please, please help me to be strong enough...
Please! PLEASE!!!

Lucky

About a month ago I called Demba n said I didnt wanna be wit him again n dat I am fo sure not coming to Gambia.
N today, I went on facebook n saw a picture wit him walkin wit someone. Den I saw, it was Eva... My heart jus stopped beating.
Crap... SHE is wit him in Gambia. THEY will get married.
I deleted him on Facebook so I wouldnt hav to see anythin more.
How could she do that? How can she be so week?
This will hurt a short time, but I am ok.
I am happy I am not her, I'm happy I said no.
I'm happy I wont be the one he will keep hurting. Destroying.
I feel lucky.
Now is all over.

Love

I'm Moving In

I jus moved out from the appartment I shared wit my sister in Vällingby.
Now I stay wit my friend Filippa in Brandbergen, I rent a room at her place.
Is cool so far! :)
She stayes wit her twins Aeon and Atreyu. And her boyfriend and sister spends a lot of time there.
It felt shit I had to move from Vällingby but I kinda like it here. Is nice, a lot of action!
I stay in the childrens playroom, haha is very cute! :) The wall is painted like a castle.

I told Demba some time ago that I didnt wanna hav much contact wit him also. It was hard to do it, but I am proud of myself.
I feel free now, still miss him though.
It was for sure the best thing to do.
Dont feel angry wit him...I truly wish him the best.
I hope he will treat his next lady better...

Love